But today, I'm back. It's my 31st birthday. I'm not happy about it AT ALL.
It's not that I think 31 is so old or anything. I realize it's not... although I really don't want to get any older than 35... EVER!
It's more just that I feel like I haven't experienced enough of life for a 31 year old. At 20 I expected so much from life. I know plans fail and all that... but I'm not talking about specific plans... I'm talking about life milestones. 30 wasn't as hard as 31. I guess I felt like I was turning over a new leaf and a new leaf meant an endless amount of possibilities for a new decade. At 31, nothing is different from 30 or 29 or 25. You get the idea. And... I know you're thinking "so go out and live!"... I guess I don't have a valid excuse to contradict you.
Anyway, this isn't the way I feel all the time. Sometimes I'm very optimistic and hopeful. Today is just sucky... because it's my birthday and I don't enjoy birthdays all that much anyway <3 p="">3>
So there you have it... a slice of real life.
I'm an eternal optimist... I believe that everything works out in the end... even if I know from history, that's not always true.
Were any of your birthdays difficult for you?